totSC lives

=(
sighs, the past week realli sucked. screwed up so badly during aq i realli felt i let my team down...60th too. God, why the hell did i have to cramp so many times?!? couldnt even perform better with all the encouragement from the coy. blardy hell sia. if i wuz in this 4 myself i wouldnt have cared if i cramped to shyt but why did it have to happen during aq? probably my last yr in aq too...probably sums up my competition participation for 60th haiz...hope not tho but i realli cant see my parents making a sudden change of mind lol. dunno y ive been so sian abt sch dis yr...5dww can go to hell for i care lol. dis yr began on a bright note but ive been feeling quite stressed recently...felt totally down and depressed for a few wks in march and yesterday nite wuz sth liddat. realli had to talk to sb abt it. luckily my parents were arnd so i sortof managed to get it off my chest. thnk God for all the pple arnd me...i'd probably be an insecure and stressed out cokhead w/o them. somehow i felt a lot better todae morn...sighs, i realli need some sort of outlet thank God for msn =)

yay!
wow, wad a dae. wuz feeling downrite rotten cos of all the clashes between sph geog and aq and bb. all the work the teachers are throwing at us arent helping too. been working my arse off the whole week, and i wasnt sure i could hold that up for much longer. felt awfully stressed about RE too. still got no topic, even tho me lam and wank tried our best liaos. felt realli bad for the first 2 periods, until recess. God somehow just helped me to realise that i cannot always expect high standards of myself. after all, we are just human. thankfully He nvr gives us anything we cannot handle. the aq training wuz my high point of the week. i felt that my team realli outdid ourselves, and wuz realli proud of them. finally, sth that i can feel upbeat about. phy, thnx so much for reminding me that when i need help, theres auwaes help at hand.

haha, im back...at long last
yos peeps, sry abt dis blog being so darn stone recently cos i wuz at obs and the first few days after coming back were oso so busy. jus had the time of my life in obs on ubin sia. darn fun lors. high elements, hiking, flying fox, tripod, inverse tower, kayaking, rock climbing, field cooking...wah seh. it wuz seriously veh fun and i felt sure i had widened my comfort zone. like wad longkuan said, some parts of obs can be sian if u've oredi gone thru it, but jus have to face it wif the correct attitude lors. after all, got challenges like whiners in my watch to pull along, so it wuz still a veh unique experience in the end. haha, had a fear of heights at first, but jus prayed 6 storeys up in the air tt everything would go fine, and sure enuff, the whole way down wuz super fun. wahaha. thank the Lord! jus had a super xiong aq trg too. down wif ab aches all the time. mebbe cos of the way i run and all...but the realli cool thing wuz that i realli felt i wuz pushing hard dis time, not like the other times when i still had the strength to plae soccer. to be honest, if u can plae soccer directly after aq, mebbe u jus arent giving ur all, or ur jus super enthu. lolness. still wondering abt the sph geog challenge...mebbe shd talk with yaksy abt it...jus hope its trgs dun clash wif aq otherwise im out of it :) havent been doing much recently, jus finished off the hw from todae in 1/2 hr and settled all the other cec admin stuff till now...so sianz, haha. jus got my re grp todae...lam and wank! hahaz. i noe pple dunrealli have a gd impression of them lah, but lam rox sia. did re wif him when i wuz in sec 1, and he wuz jus so good lors. haha, wank is most useful cos he is such a good follower! ask him to go somewhere to do sth he sure do it darn well one lors. hahas, gg to try to pwn re scores again:P mebbe doing sth abt inventing easier and better ways to learn calculus...haha. sounds fun tho, like those cokked up centres which cook up cokked-up programmes which are supposed to improve ur mind. hahas. gg mad liao, need to sleep. so bye everyone, until we meet again :D

wow...sch restart liaoz
arrr...the hosl jus ended too suddenly for me. still cant wake up in time. :P sighs. longkuan and chris telling me all abt obs...lol. still cant forget the commando insects we met the last time we were in ubin. sighs. at least we have bashas :) gg to be quite bz for a while in term 1...got sec1 nco, aq trainings...lol. haiz. gg to be realli fun tho. still cant wait to meet the new sec 1s. hope we can groom them into a batch that has energy and enthu-ness. haha. i realli admire the sec2s now that i look back. their batch is rather unique. tall, short, fat or thin, they all had explosive energy and willingness to be involved in some way or another. they realli spice up our days together as 60th and we realli shd thank them for that. hope the new sec 1s are like that. haha.

oh well
jus got sent home frm day 1 of aq camp cos nvr bring consent form. felt dam sad of course, but i guess the fault lies with me. haiz. i'll definitely be back on day 2 tho. had a spiritual attack a few days ago. felt sth pressing on me. couldnt breathe. felt so awfully scared that i jus kept on calling out for Christ and the pressure jus eased off. woke up sweating. now, i have no doubt about the power of Jesus Christ.

feeling...compromised...
im getting dam sian at the way my mother's making me compromise this and that reagrding aq. of course the timing i had to return home wuz perfectly fair, but she wanted me to promise to skip training when i couldn't handle my sch work to her expectations. what the fuk sia. im not one to disrespect parental authority lah, but thisis seriously getting sian...grr. haiz. been trying to talk to my mom, but she isnt tt easy to move. i guess she jus wants the best for me...and she's rite, sch work shd come b4 ccas, but when your so passionate abt sth like aq, the choice is so freaking hard. sighs. oh God, pls give me serenity to deal with the things i cannot change...

its gd to be back!
waaah. came back frm m'sia and suddenly i srealised how much i've missed. dint even noe i wuz sec 1 nco until zach told me. missed so much aq training tt i dint even noe abt the teams :P haha, tts all in the past; i've caught up..thankfully. jus finished my hols hw off todae..feeling kinda bored. did ok at aq trg yesterdae..40 min jog + stair trg + circuits were oki guess. got killed during stair trg tho. stopped at every lift lobby to stop the aches and calm down my cardio. got kinda dizzy on the way down; the whole thing seemed like a nvr-ending spiral! it wuz good to see the kind of enthu sec 1s we got in our trg team tho. sighs. been feeling kinda resigned lately. probably cos sch's back in abt 2 wks and theres still a whole lot of stuff to take care of. looking forward to sec 3 yr tho...got lots of stuff to do and to try for the first time :D

church camp
jus came back frm church camp in m'sia...really amazed at what happened. Like Claris said, i realli dint think that our youth grp had it in us to worship God in such a true and unabashed fashion. i could realli feel God's presence in the room during the night worship on the final nite. pple jus lifted their hands and fell to their knees in worship. i broke down for the first time in my life during woship, thinking about how my life wif God has been. remembering the realisation God has brought me to in june, i also remembered how i had backslided frm that, delaying my coming back to God. i realli felt that sth had to change. thinking of what sb had mentioned abt surrendering ur all to God, i prayed realli hard for God to tae over my life, cos there is almost nothing a human can do to make his life pleasing to God. i wuz prompted to share during the sharing session (during which i intended to be jus a spectator). i wuz one of the few that had shared abt periods where one had drifted away frm God, and i wuz glad that everyone could come up and share in such and earnest and open way. after the worship, everyone lingered in the room, and hugged. i guess i quite never saw theyouth doing that in church. it wuz a whole new experience for all of us i think. the mood lightened after the worship, and everyone wuz feeling the joy of being rededicated or coming together once more wif God. adrain asked me to stay a while and share a little gospel wif pei ping, due to the fact that she understood onli a little english. i tried using what i've learnt frm the few chinese sermons i've heard to help dorcas, and peiping wuz realli open and asked many questions, unlike hardcore non-believers. i felt so lucky that God had given me jus that little taste of helping a non-believer despite my wretchedness in the past. the worship kinda ended late, so most of us decided not to sleep at all. pple played lame games outside the room, and others went up to their rooms to plae board games. i played game of life in yi lin's room. our banker fell asleep half way, and the pple changed salaries so many times that the game ended quite close. watched soccer at 3, but fell asleep and ended up waking next morn totally pooped. on the way back, i felt so lucky to have been able to attend that camp...God had taught me so much, even though i had given so little. Thank the Lord.

holidays rok sia!!!
hallo. havent been updating recently cos i jus got back frm melbourne...wuz totally fun man. the countryside wuz way cool man! its nothing like s'pore...so relaxing.the cit is beautifulat nite, cos got all the lights and stuff, and the motor inns were jus like 5 star hotels. spent my nites in the hotels tokking cok wif yyq until 2 in the morning, almost couldnt wake up the next day :P everyone wuz so nice...dalai wuz crapping his ass off, hes darn joker. haha, got no more energy t write animore...conked out for 5 hrs straight after the nite flight. :D

wheeeeee!!!!
AQ traning started at last!!! been waiting months for this...in a totally unfit body tho :P thankfully chee keen anticipated that most of us would be fat and unfit, so we ended up running onli 4 click and doing pullups and circuits. forgot to stretch last nite...paying for it now. i cant even raise my arms to the full...muscles too taut and painful. my legs arent tt bad tho...onli the calves. aq wuz full of laffs as usual... the sec 1s wif their sick stuff and squad 2 wif their bleddy sick cheer (banana finger) the soccer after trg wuz even better!! lots of stupid and funni stuff happened cos we all not veh gd...yyq dint seem too much of a gorilla tho...he wuz in quite bad shape after trg i guess. it wuz still nice fun tho. i did some pretty stupid things tho. i flew across eugene trying to tackle him and got rammed up the arse cos i put myself in the way of ming yong's shot. then again...stupid things are fun to watch, no? :D had a realli coolio week too. first, i went wif yyq and longkuan to watch Taxi...the movie had the whole cinema laughing like they were gonna piss (i especially loved the laughing gas and frisking scenes). then i had a squad outing where xin rui, japeth and i went to watch The Incredibles. onli managed to get front row seats, so had to suffer a bit. the movie wuz incredibly engaging...it got its point thru despite all the lameness. after tt, we went to watch the 3R class production wif longkuan and jared. it wuz much better than the movie...the actors were seriously gd, and martin the sadist realli fitted his role well (not many pple can play the sadist in Lord of the Flies tt well), and they even got the Raffles Players chair to act. everything wuz so professionally done tt we dint realli believe tt we onli paid 5 bux for it. haha, still rmbr when mitchell had to sit quietly and silently up the aisle during the intermission despite the eggings of his fellow judo kas...he acted so gay and shy during the play! the worse thing is tt he looked uncannily natural...wahaha!!!

lamzy's cap!
hehe, lamzy's cap is here at last...i noe tt zach oredi did one on him, but lets see how lamzy fares frm a different perspective...here goes! lamzy is a combination of wit, determination and ultimate lameness. unlike the stereotypical maths shen, he chooses to walk the thin veneer between ostracisation and being lame. so far, he's gotten a good taste of both. being an ex-chariman, hes helped me quite a bit, but hes unfortunately learned something from hes year as chair...he will not hesitate at being brutally honest about ur shortcomings. this is one of the few times hes ever serious...tho hes thankfully not an extremist like alan...:P he dint have such a nice time in sec 1 tho...wuz so ostracized...poor thing. hes bounced back tho, and he is undeniably an important part of the AQ brudderhood. he provides the occasional good joke, the frequent lousy joke, and the off-colour humour that has made him rather famous. we do owe quite some to lamzy...after all, hu is so funny to strip? hehe...i do suppose many of us remember when zach dripped "feng you" (you noe...the chinese medicated oil) on lamzy's undies...wahaha...he wuz suffering for hours after that...:D well, we owe a lot to lamzy, its kinda time to repay all that...lets all give lamzy a big thank you!!! btw, i think yong qian still has the pictures of ur stripping on his comp...ani one interested can ask me...:D

having lotsa fun!
been rather busy this wk having fun...such a packed schedule! still found time to slack tho...bashed thru a whole book at one sitting. oman...this sounds all so michaelish. played floorball wif the church youth...had a wacky time! we broke a stick, and high balls flew everywhere. sb even tore his pants...we had a good long laugh abt that one...hehe sometimes, i jus feel that hols shouldnt be so packed...its supposed to be time for us to unwind and all...but its gd that we all have sth to do...i think i'll turn into some rotting heap if im stoning all the time. gonna have to miss NCO retreat cos of church camp...AARRGHS!!! haiz...i guess thats one thing tt cant be changed...i'm quite sad to miss out on all the discussions tho. ohwells, wif church camp arnd, its not so bad after all. well, i'll be doing a CAP on lamzy quite soon...hes kinda well-known around here, but i think it 'd be nice for pple to noe wad kind of person he is...heehee *mischievious look*

nvr knew hols cld be so fun!!!
hey everybody...i've been off for a few daes, but im back! hehe, jus had a crazy week enjoying myself in sch, church and outside...plaed too much tho. dint let my left ankle recover frm twist and now it hurst when i try to run...even my right groin is failing on me...hope i recover in time for the sec 2 vs sec 1 game...:P oso went to a book sale and kiped a crud lot of books...mostly jeffery archer and robin cook...gonna stone like a phat dood when im not off at aq :D humm...still cant find a background pic for this blog, so its probably gg to stay as plain as it is rite now. finally, our whole sec 2 batch (most of us) passed drill 1...woot! looking back at the daes when we first started doing batch drill, i find tt we've actually moved a lot frm wat we were in the past. the communication isnt there yet, but i guess mutual understanding has built between us and tts what counts. will be looking forward to doing drill again sometime soon! haiz...gonna have to stone for a while to recover b4 aq starts...not gonna let yyq be the fittest and fastest guy arnd! haha, no offence yyq :D

i cant think of a name for this entry :P
Hello everyone...my first time updating my blog so often...hehe, gives u a clue of how often (or rather how rarely) i updated my blog previously...well, tts all gonna change. hols seriously rok man...im sleeping 12 hrs a dae and enjoying the other 12...gotta squad outing next sat and a whole lot of other stuff to do...woot. hehe, i've heard some complains abt the background...well, i might change it if i can find a gd pic...but it kinda reflects how plain dumb i can get sometimes...:P haiz...the batch doesnt look too gd..even chee keen cant get all of us together...but we'll keep on trying, wont we guys? :D

im back...at long last :P
Hey peeps, so sry bout my imactivity around here...if u noe me well, u shd noe abt my apathetic attitude towards my blogs...:P end of yr is jus so fun! i spent the last wk gg out wif zach, lam and yq, plaeing com and jus slacking around at home! the sad thing is tt im still struggling wif ideas for a squad outing...xin rui, i hope ur reading this...btw, sry if this blog sounded pretty whiny at the start...it does need a lift in mood. i jus got rejected by my hssrp mentor, so no more worries! :D haha, actually me and w*nk are pretty relieved tt we could be let off the hook...lol. oh yah, hu's taking bio and lit?? hahas, been quite crappy these daes...used cs nicks like nobody and ses enfants (his children in french)...then u'll see stuff like piggy headshot nobody, nobody shot shookone, shookone headshot ses enfants (his children!) hahas, bb for now!

pondering...
sheesh...i guess this is where the sec 2 life comes to an end and the period of mugging begins...well, this was indeed a fun year for all of us...wif all da stripping and idiosyncracies...but if this is all that we hope to gain out of our two years together, dats pretty sad...wished that we could have done more for each other and for the class...wishes,wishes...hoe that all of us can do better in sec 3...in terms of character i mean

wah lau...HSSRP shattiness...+_+
Wah lau, they made us to up the HSSRP proposal in jus 1 ntoe lor...siao sia...all that shat they told us abt the expert mentors is realli freaking out...arghs...nvm, i'll not give up on sth i've tried so hard at...even got scoled by Doreen Ang for being "so late"...stoopid Maas...tell us so freakin late...shat her lah...ben rox sia, the two of us were discussing till 11pm...shattiness, still got EOY and Third lang to take care of...wad a nite...dam shiok lor

+friggin' tired!!!+
Arrr...stpppid reading ptfolio...the rubrics take even more time than the reflections itself lors!!! spas man...the evidence took me quite some time...better brush up on my attitude if i wan to make it for lit next year...sighs...y do they auwaes come up with sth that makes u dislike the subject u love most?!? +_+ Geoff

*bloodshot eyes*...down but not out...
wow...what a fridae...its a landmark meeting of the mind over class and individual issues, but somehow one is daunted by the long way we have yet to go to reach the goals tt johari and johnson have set...feeling downrite disappointed with myself now...jus wished that i could have done more for the class when i first took over from chee...i've been too much admin, shown too much wildness and too little concern for all the rot thats been eating at our class...how much i would like to just turn away from all this crud and hang in there till EOY, but somehow, i jus feel that this is not fair to all of us. the onus is on me to do what i can...but what a long way to progress in a matter of weeks...i understand ms johnson's wish now...jus wish tt i could go back to feb 2004 and redo all that ive done...for the better of our class. :( Geoff +_+

Heyy world!!!
Heyy everyone!!! im gEoFF a.k.a. totSC, and welcome to my blog! im jus a normal and vry vry enthu type of dyss/cec meber/nco council member/sq. council member/60th bb boy...heehees. i luv running, hiking, music and most of all, bb 60th!!! dunt expect anything scandalous to appear in this blog tho...we all noe the tchers have means and ways to get here...;D do enjoy ur time here, and pls let me noe u've been here by using the tag-board!! all comments on everything under the sun (well, not realli) are welcome...:D i'll be changing the layout and format of the page as we go along, so pls bear with the boring background as it is. gEoFF